20050730

I am still alive, in case any of you are wondering, but I am up to my ears in shit and work which I don't know how to do a decent job with. It's terrible horrible and completely vegetable and makes me wonder why I'm in this course and not in Mass Comm, playing with words and weaving tapestries with them.

No, I HAD to work my ass off to get into this course. -_-

Anyways, the official break week has come to an end, which was supposed to comprise of the special course, lets call it TDP, shall we? Supposed to have TDP class and no normal module classes. Next week, it's no TDP class but there are normal module lessons. What kind of break is this exactly? Granted this week, our supposed TDP lessons didn't take place because the director, lets call him YT, doesn't come for most of our sessions. It's most annoying and is a waste of my time.

Did I mention I suck at most of the things I'm supposed to be doing here? I like painting but I can't paint. I like drawing but I can't draw. I... would like perspective if I could do it well enough. And hell my storyboards are like shit. I can't do camera angles to save my sorry arse because for some strange reason, I've got the image in my head but transfering it onto paper is another matter.

Sometimes I wish I could trade my writing ability for being able to draw the way I am able to write. Then I think, what is the use drawing, if there is nothing deeper to it? Then it's just a picture and nothing more. No, I think I'll keep to word weaving. It has a magic of its own.