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As the title suggests, I AM dying. There's just too much work and too high an expectation we have to fulfill and I'm afraid I simply don't have the skillset available at the moment to be able to cope sufficiently.

I can't stand my parents. I just brought up this portfolio thing which is due tomorrow and complained about the standard and the fact that there was no time to be able to produce such a good piece of work and then they're like," We don't see you drawing. You're always surfing the net."

It's enough to make you want to cough blood. Don't see you drawing does not equate to not drawing. And bloody damn well yes I surf the net. That's what I do in between drawings.

I'm too upset to continue drawing, but that kind of mindset is unacceptable in an animator's world, if the client wants it tomorrow, he wants it tomorrow. Who cares if your mother died, your cat is sick, the car isn't working, there's a blackout. It doesn't matter but that piece of work better jolly well reach the client tomorrow or that's the end of you and and you career.

I shall get back to it... when I recover.

Hopefully soon.