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Ahahaha I just realised my course nothing like NYP's or TP's design courses ahh.. mine's more to the media side, making use of our own talents and ideas.. so stuff like learning perspective and basic colour matching is like, DIY? ahahah...weee EVERYTHING's DIY at my school anyways ahahh..

Anyways, for now, I'm concentrating on music, both creating and mixing.. apparently, we are thinking of making use of people who already have musical backgrounds to come up with a short sequence... so we have like trumpet collabarating with flute and guitar and keyboard and drums and vocals and OF COURSE TURNTABLES. cool shizz.

The "beng techno" which all hate so much (well maybe except dragon and me, but it's starting to get annoying) is EURODANCE, NOT techno. EURODANCE is a SUBCATEGORY of techno. So next time ur friends say "EEE TECHNO SO BENG", tell em "it's EURODANCE, NOT TECHNO!!!"

Once I have the time, I promise I'll do something about the layout.. after which u guys can criticise/slam/insult the layout.

TIME TO BE EMO!

I think tehfellowsheep hate me and can do without me because I'm so annoying and self-centered. Soon, all you guys will forget about me and it won't make a difference if I leave the group because I kinda don't fit in?

People like ade and lix constantly bother giving encouraging words to everyone, ade and nie are both very intelligent ladies, brimming with knowledge, dragon is lovable, AND THEN THERE'S EMO YUAN.

THE IRRITATING, EXTRA, ANNOYING, BRAINLESS ONE WHO IS OF NO USE TO THE GROUP EXCEPT TO CRITICISE AND WELL, BE ANNOYING.

Everytime I wanna encourage you ppl, I find it so hard? Cuz it's not ME! Everytime I wanna contribute facts and opinions, it JUST doesn't appeal to ANYONE? I'm myself, yet I feel that you guys don't like myself being myself? I picture myself going out once a month, and that very day, I picture everyone except dragon rolling their eyes at whatever I say, but because dragon is so cute, she's fine with everything?

I'm drifting away from you, guys. I really am. That's why I avoid small talk over tea, in fear that I WILL BE EXCLUDED FROM WHATEVER BECAUSE I'M SO UNINTERESTING AND BLABBER TOO MUCH NONSENSE? BUT THAT'S ME. I can't change this because it poses no harm to anyone.

Just. Discomfort.. to myself.. and annoyance to the rest..

Please don't say that i'm wallowing in self-pity aka being emo because, this time, I admit I am, and at the same time, I do hope you guys understand how I feel =)

And try not to rake up the past because I was anal then, hopefully no more now.

I shall stop here.